Simple Updates!

SOOOO Jeremy got that job that I had spoken about in my last post. There are a few downfalls though. It turns out they only hired him on part time because he's sharing the position with someone else....a friend of the boss lady, who is apparently very bitchy - eehhg. <~~~~what kind of sound is that? I just pray to God that Jer starts to love it there and he meshes in and gets hired on full time.

Easter just passed us by on the 4th. It was fun at first....then we went to Jer's parents at night and his mom decided to awkwardly pull him away for over an hour to chat about some intense stuff that had been going on. Jeff, Amy, and I were just sitting in the living room looking at each other just overcome with awkwardness. Mr. G just went in his play room to watch TV. We really felt uncomfortable and were disappointed she didn't invite other family members that we usually see every Easter. I had taken a lot of time to make our deviled eggs we brought very presentable and yummy. I knew she'd have a private moment with Jer about a few things....but I had no idea she would center the entire Easter occasion around it. It sucked. Why couldn't she just take Jer out to lunch or something? Oh well. But on a lighter note...here's some pics of our gorgeous deviled eggs....




Here is a very pretty salad Amy made for Easter....



Today I am working for the 5th day of an 8 day-in-a-rower.......yikes! I've been drinking our veggie/fruit juice and taking vitamin C. Along with coffee of course. I just don't want to get sick for my vacation like I did last year from working 9 days in a row and being very exhausted. Once my 8 days is up, I am off for 11 days. We are going to Jer's sister's house in Lake City and then up to TN to have a vacation for once....and decide if that is the place for our wedding!! Can't wait!! I am also getting my hair done by Faith Barnes. I'll let you know how it goes!

Good Days Ahead? Juice on the squeeze, Publix in my heart.

Good Morning!

Well, I just showered and made coffee...mmm the whole apartment smells like blueberries from the blueberry coffee!! How wonderful! Jeremy is in bed still, but I heard him stirring around in the bed...possibly smelling things and hearing things happening on my current side of the apartment...maybe enticing him to get up and enjoy the day! It looks pleasurably sunny outside! In high school, I often sat next to this Indian guy on the bus who went by "Sunny"...but his name was Duyshant or something like that, I always called him "Sunny Bunny!"..cute, eh? Anyways, Jeremy may have a job opportunity coming up and goodness, I hope it works out because it sounds almost fantasy like the way the opp came about. One morning, we were lying in bed and he got a 9am text and it said "Hi Jeremy, this is Brian McNay...i may have a graphic design position at the company I work for that you would be interested in. Please give me a call."Jer gave him a call and found out the details. It's in Tampa and he'd be doing a catalogue for a big company that installs beautiful front doors in homes. It looks great! The building that the office is located in looks fancy even! Well, that call was just over a week ago. Apparently the position is still taken by a woman that will soon be fired or resign and then Jeremy will be able to have an interview. This Brian guy said he was 90% sure about everything. All we can do now is wait to hear from him again. Jeremy said he has no problem being confident about his skills in the interview....which Brian did coach that he MUST be confident in his graphic design skills to win over the woman Cynthia who would be conducting the interview. How could Jeremy not win? He's a good loyal man with an honest voice and a very humble attitude. There's no way he can't not get this job if he gets to go in for that interview. Brian said he wanted to get younger folk in the office anyways and Jer is 25 now....young, but ready to be even more mature than he already is.

Wedding Update: Well, Jer and I have officially cancelled/postponed all vendors that were going to be a part of our November 12th wedding. We are sad, but looking ahead of it now. We are getting some of the money back at least. We have better plans now. We even wrote a "Change the Date" card to send out to all the people that we had sent out "Save the Date" cards to. On it, is a little poem we wrote....

Change the Date!

To all our friends and family, just a little note…

To forget the “save the date” we previously wrote.

Due to the situations and circumstances of life,

It will be a little longer before Jeremy has a wife.

We are sorry to have to cancel the plans of before,

Just know for sure that much more fun is in store.

We want you to know our love is still deep,

Unfortunately, weddings just aren’t cheap.

We’ll let you know

As things re-flow

But for now, just remember,

Our wedding won’t be this November.

Aren't I a cute poem writer?? LOL. Anyways, it's not too corny, but more fun than anything I think. Jer seemed to get a kick out of it himself. It will be nice to get those out to everyone soon. Next month, depending on Jeremy's job situation, we plan on going up to TN to stay at a mountain cabin resort to have a look and see if that's where we'd like to have our wedding ceremony. From the website and talking to the people on the phone, it seems dreamlike! It would be fairly cheaper than our original wedding because we'd have only around 25-30 guests...include Jer, Me, and the Bridal party of course. We would be paying for them to stay for a few days in a luxurious cabin! How fun!!! We could all spend time together and be on a lighter schedule on the wedding day...no rushing around for appointments. Us girls could do our hair right in the cabin together and it would just be so much more exciting and relaxed I feel. I just hope my mom would be able to make it. I'll let you know how what's going on!

Yesterday, Jer and I went to Wal-mart...ugh, I hate supporting them, but we basically have to sometimes. We bought a new juicer! Jer and I were talking about our health for a while yesterday, and of course I got weepy talking about my blood pressure and how I want to be in ideal health so bad, but it just seems too much of a challenge. Jer assured me we can get through it together, and then he thought of juice! We bought the juicer and came right home and juiced carrots, apples, and oranges. It was great! We are going to work our way up to other veggies too, it will be so wonderful to get all that health into our systems! I feel confident and motivated today, but I know those feelings only last so long...Jeremy will help me keep them alive. I want to lose 35 lbs in the next 4-5 ,months and Jer wants to lose at least 15 lbs. He already lost 20 last year and hasn't gained a whole lot of it back, but he just wants to finish what he had started I think. Good luck Megan and Jeremy! We did that fruit and veggie fast in Jan...and I lost 6-7 lbs....if I can do it then, I can do it now....and I am going to call it a fruit and veggie FOCUS instead of a fast. Fasts get broken, but focus can always be a goal. Hellooo carrots!!

The day before yesterday, I got to help setup and tear down the Publix Luncheon for the 2010 Service Awards...honoring people who have worked for the company 5, 10, and 15 years. The 20+ year people get a dinner banquet. I had so much fun and felt very useful...it was great and a fantastic "networking opp" since I'd like soooo badly to be promoted soon! I've been ROIing for over two years now! If i were still at my old store 640 I would have gotten promoted already, but I still believe I made the right decision to come back to 353 because I really felt it in my heart. I am NOT saying that to convince myself of it either. At the luncheon, we had lots of guests..like Mike Abrams...our top HR man, and Jim Herring....the regional director!! AAAHH!! I took this lovely picture of them sitting together....they let me....i felt very special....

This second lovely photo was Mike Abrams's idea....a photo of myself....and the centerpiece of the table....you know there is a rumor that if Mike comes into your Publix store wearing a blue shirt...he's there to fire someone? LOL, no clue if he actually does this...but, he might? I would!!! Just to mess with everyone, hahaha! I would love a neat tale like that following my position.




Well, I guess it's time for me to finish my coffee and make my juice. Love until next time! I hope i come back here bearing good news. :)

The Dark Ages.

Gosh it's been well over a month. Sooo much has happened. I don't even know where to start. I am so down right now because of money, my wedding, my work, my health - it all just sucks ass right now. Jeremy and I are in some dark days with this economic struggle. He still hasn't found a job and we have decided to drop our wedding date that we have worked so hard for over the last year. I cried for days and days when we made this decision. A lot of it was paid for, but a lot of it wasn't. There just wasn't anything we could do to pay it off in time. It's been a year this month that we have been engaged. I'm in a pair of footies, Christmas PJ pants, and a sweatshirt. I haven't even brushed my hair today and it's almost 5pm. Jer was on the porch throwing darts, now he's just sitting on the couch, staring at his phone. Perhaps hoping someone calls him with good news? We got invited to a wedding in England...wow, but there's noway we'd be able to go to that at all. Bummer! My car got towed this weekend at a hotel after lisa's wedding, and my dad had to pick us up. It costed 150 bucks to get the thing back. DAMN! Then I had to pay a 281$ speeding ticket because I was unable to complete my community service hours...shit. Oh! And I side swiped Becky's friend, Kaitie's car....what was I thinking! So I feel like crap for inconviencing her because now she has to get it fixed and all that, even though my insurance is paying. Our savings is just being eaten away by dumb shit and it just has us so down. It really feels like the world is against us. Please help God!

Our education levels....do not define the goodness in our hearts.

Well, after yesterday....I think it's nice to have a day off of work. We had an evil person get upset at something one of our cashier's said....well, he was upset at a look she gave or the way she said whatever she said...I couldn't tell you because I wasn't there. WELL, he decided at that moment he was better than any human being that ever existed and just as I walked by, he was saying loudly into her face, "YOU'LL NEVER EVER HAVE AS MUCH EDUCATION AS I HAVE" Umm...okay, I stopped this real quick and told him to come talk to me about what's bothering him. The story goes on, but isn't that just a ridiculous thing to say? His education level does not make him better than anyone else in the world. I wish I could have said something to him about it, but i had to smile, nod, and apologize instead....because, well we are taking his money every week for his groceries. I just have to accept he's just an ignorant bastard.

ANYWAYS, today I'm just drinking my coffee and waiting to see what the day holds. I am probably going over to the church to complete some community service hours to pay off that damn speeding ticket. Blah. I don't hate being there or anything, it's just kind of a nuisance when there is so much more I could be doing. Tonight, I am going to Applebee's with Ayla and her sister for her sister's birthday. I can't wait! It will be so fun. I will eat fairly well of course because of my weight loss goals.

YESTERDAY, Jer and I started out the first our our "Twenty walks in February." It was a beginner walk outside in the neighborhood behind our apartment complex. We walked very briskly for about 45 mins. When we got home, we were about ready for a nap each. It's wonderful! I'd like to go out and take walk number two with him when I get home from Applebee's.

Wedding update: March 7th....Jenny is coming down with Abby and I am making a final decision on which bridesmaid dress will be in my wedding :) Then, I'm probably trying on wedding dresses!!! We'll see if I can lose 10lbs before then. That's 35 days.

Coffee, hopes, blood and vegetables?

Twelve days of my life have gone by again. Yes, I am making coffee and it smells delightful. I've had my shower....and I've closed the bedroom doors so Jeremy can have peace from my typing as he continues to sleep. What an angel! He hasn't found a job yet, but our hopes are...well, hopeful. I'm truly thinking God will give him a new job...or his old job back...sometime in March. I would love earlier of course! A ladybug got trapped in my car on the way home from work yesterday, so I thought that was a fairly good sign.

My grandpa is doing MUCH better, he's out of the hospital and his bacterial infection of the blood is subsiding. His hugely swollen arm has gone down, and I really need to give him a call to say hello.

January 10th, I began a fruit and vegetable fast sort of lead by my friend Ayla. She's a wonderfully God led woman and I would like to follow her examples of having no health-impeding worries and letting go of all for God to deal with. I've prayed a few times and it's felt good, but I'm still trying to find a true connection with God again...similar to the one I had growing up in Christian school, but better. One thing I am finding is a good connection with fruits, vegetables, and the good earth. I've made things I never thought about making...like spaghetti squash, eggplant, and home-made tomato sauce - with Jeremy's help of course. I've cheated a couple of times - having hard boiled eggs and a little bit of milk...but I didn't feel too bad because it really wasn't that drastic. I have lost 6 lbs today though! And I have ten days left. I am so happy! If I continue to eat this well, and then start my walking....I could actually be my ideal weight before my wedding, how exciting!!!

Baked tomatoes with basil leaves.

Homemade tomato sauce, with spaghetti squash in the background.

Baked asparagus with whole mushrooms.

Wedding updates:

Jeremy and i got a new printer so we printed out some of the pieces to our wedding invitations. I made the reply cards, the reply card envelopes, and the reception card! I did the math and it's almost 400$ cheaper to make your own than order some simple ones made for you that are about just as nice! I am such a good money saver...for the most part!

Jeremy designed some WONDERFUL place cards for the head table at the reception :) They are really going to make the bridal party feel special!

We also went to the Church a couple of days ago and took a LOT of pictures to get ideas for how to decorate it. This wedding is really coming along and it's wonderful!

On the 16th, I took Becky and Ayla to Gainesville to meet with Jenny and try on bridesmaid dresses. We also ate lunch at Olive Garden. Wow, was it hard. If I didn't have Ayla with me...I would have had some crazy fatty pasta. We all had salads and vegetables....except Becky. She had the steak gorgonzola...what a biatch. lol!! So now i am torn between two AMAZING bridesmaid dresses. The first one is the original one that I had wanted. It's this one...

.....but in the melrose print shown in this picture....

And now, we happened to find another dress that all the girls I could tell LOVED and loved wearing...they all looked incredibly elegant and goddess like....

Sorry, I didn't have your face on that one jenny...haha. I was trying to get a close up of the goods! So this dress is AMAZING. One thing about my bridesmaids is they are all super gorgeous and nice and slim and just beautiful princesses! Sounds shallow and mean, but I'm glad I don't have fatties in my wedding. I'm the chunkiest one right now unfortunately, but that will change. I will be equal to them with the help of those damn veggies. haha. I really don't think the first one got a fair chance....i will be looking for a shop that has both those EXACT right dresses so they can try them on side by side. Stay tuned to what dress I choose :)

Good Morning World!

It's been five days! I've been very busy, very tired, and have had an awful cold.

Monday I toughed work out hardcore. I was getting sicker by the moment, but I pushed on. I don't like failing where I work at all. Just after 10pm, I had our last few customers checking out and was waiting by the door to let them out.(The doors were turned off and locked at this point.) One woman leaving asked if I was sick because she could hear my sniffles. I said yes and boy was she an angry bitch. She literally turned evil - horns and fire - and demanded SICK PEOPLE SHOULD NOT COME TO WORK! YOU TOUCHED MY GROCERIES! I just said very clear, I did NOT touch your groceries. She had maybe two bags and I did actually remember walking by and putting her two, already filled bags, into her cart to be nice just a little while before. Then she nastily stated, YOU TOUCHED MY BAGS!!!! DO YOU HAVE HAND SANITIZER SOMEWHERE?? As a matter of fact, I did right behind me have a container of alcohol wipes on the wall. I grabbed the container and held it out before her. She stared at me shocked that I had touched the container. I'LL GET MY OWN! PUT IT BACK ON THE WALL. I just though geese, this old bitch must have aids or something to be that concerned...if she used the wipes, she didn't even have to touch the container whether I was holding it or not. STUPID DUMB IDIOT - that's what she was. She went back inside and got new fresh grocery bags as I had obviously heavily contaminated them. Meanwhile, a man drove by and asked if we were open from inside his truck NO! I said across the way...CAN I JUST COME IN A BUY A PACK OF CIGARETTES!? I just can't let anyone in after hours I told him. BUT I SEE SOME PEOPLE IN THERE? I CAN JUST GIVE YOU THE MONEY AND YOU CAN GO BUY THEM FOR ME AND BRING THEM BACK HERE. Once again, i simply said I can't do that. He flicked me off and drove away. Are you that desperate that you have to pester a grocery store girl and be mean to her? I guess he was, he needed them so bad, I hope he drove next door and got them at the gas station. It would take him all of 10 seconds to get there. What a dumbass. I get really sick of nasty folk being mean to me at work somedays I can't stand it. It honestly will make me cry. I don't always take it personally, but when there's just an abundance of it going on in one day, it makes me sick to my stomach. Assholes. This world is a buncha assholes. I just wanted to go home and get better.

Tuesday, I was extremely sick and flat out called out of work. It was a horrible feeling making that phone call, but I had to do it to recover or I was just going to get worse. I don't like shorting my grocery store with workers, but it happens often so I felt assured they'd get by whether I was there or not. The show goes on - even if you fall asleep watching it. I spent most of the day laying on the couch, bundled up, coughing my brains out. No fun at all.

Wednesday, I was a bit better and wasn't scheduled to work anyways. Jer and I had decided to go to the School and help his mom with a few things to get some community service hours to pay off my speeding ticket. Unfortunately, something came up and both of our horrible colds impeded us from going. I went by myself to get a new fish for my tank - a little algae eater. He is so cute! We got some coffee and lunch and just chatted for a while. We felt pretty good as long as we weren't doing "work" for some reason, so we went over to Ayla's apartment - shes's one of my best friends and is in our November wedding as a bridesmaid :) Over there, we watched "Food Inc." and "Supersize Me" to remind us of the damages our foods and food choices are causing us. We decided we'd go on a 21 day fruit and vegetable fast that she is participating in with her Church up in Jacksonville. Actually, I think many Churches do this every January to cleanse and begin fresh and of course concentrate on our prayers to God to get us through the fasting and life in general. Ayla has begun already, but Jer and I aren't starting until the 10th. I'm very excited and pumped about it. We had a lot of fun at Ayla's talking about it and she has really inspired me. I told her i might be calling her every 5 seconds when I am craving bread, meat, and cheese. haha! When we got home around 10:30 or so, Jer and i wiped out our pantry and fridge of the 5 things that Dr. Oz said you should never eat. Well, we threw out the cold ones and just hid the dry items. These items include:

Saturated Fats
Sugar
Enriched/White grains
Trans fats/hydrogenated oils
High-fructose corn syrup

It was very invigorating to get rid of these things!

Thursday, when i woke up - I found my new fish dead. It was very sad - so I made Jeremy flush him. Poor little guy, I think he froze to death but i'm not sure. My other little fishling is doing quite well. I want him to have a friend, but i need to take my water to the pet store to get tested. I really don't want another one to die on me. I went to work and it kind of sucked in general. We didn't get the store completely leveled so I felt like i was a failure and it was my fault. I think my error was that I didn't monitor the levelers enough to make sure they were doing their best. I don't think a lot of them cared enough to do their best on this particular night. Oh well, other days will come that are far more sucessful.

Friday was alright. I worked 10-7 and it was JAM PACKED with people almost all day. I was the coordinator and i was on register pretty much 7.5 of the 8 hours. It went by fairly quickly though. I think people were freaking out because this weekend is supposed to be extremely cold. Well, cold for a middle west coast Florida region. Some news stations even stated SNOW, but that is impossible. I've lived here for 24 years - my whole life and have never seen snow. It's not going to happen. It's 36 degress outside right now and I know that's cold, but it just won't snow. After work, I took another step toward my fruit and veggie fast. I bought a WHOLE lot of them and a couple of spices. I'm so challenged! After that, I rushed home and jer and I went to Applebees with Jeff and Amy. It was fun to chat for a bit and eat that nasty unhealthy food one last time. Well, for a three weeks anwyways.

Today, I just got up right before writing this so who knows what the day holds! For sure - a lot of cold...and coffee for now since I am making some. Jer just scooped the litter box in the freezing cold and he came in laughing because he loves it so much. Hopefully, someday we move up north and have a big home with some land, and some fireplaces of course. :)

Cold weather, Cold bitch, Warm couch :)

Today I worked 6am-3pm. The dark drive there was very cold so I was nice and bundled in my car with the heat on. While driving with my left hand, I held a "mike" mug with my right hand. You know the little green one-eyed monster from pixar's Monsters Inc.? I got Jer the mug for his birthday a couple years ago. I was drinking peppermint tea from it while my Jer Bear was still fast asleep under the covers at home. Mmmm. Lucky boy. :) I love him.



Work was normal...nothing too exciting happened. Although, there is a crazy bitch that comes in fairly regularly and calls the customer service desk on her cell phone to bitch about something not being on the shelf for her WHILE she's one aisle behind the desk. Talk about lazy. She's extremely demanding. I swear she thinks she steps into the store and is instantly illuminated with some crown of queenly glory. She doesn't say things like, "can you please find out if you have any ivory dish soap in the back since you don't seem to have any more on the shelf?" She says things like, "I'm on aisle ten. Someone needs to bring me my ivory dish soap now!" Don't you just want to slap bitches like that? I'd take her if I were allowed. What a fat lazy bitch. The thing that really gets me is she will fucking call the desk over and over if you don't drop all your other customers and run to her beckon. Makes me sick to my stomach. She doesn't deserve any better life than anyone else. Oh well, forget her. All I can do is act respectfully to others to help balance out people like her who have an evil mean spirit inside of them.

One rough thing about today has been the horrible cold I have. I coughed so much this evening that I threw up my whole dinner. What a waste. My insides are in so much pain from all the coughing! My head is full of snot and my neti pot won't get it all out. I took my prescribed cough syrup and about fell asleep on the couch watching some nat geo show about inmates escaping from prison. Then I snapped out of the falling asleep to come share today with my blog!

What was great about today? I must say from the bottom of my heart, THANK YOU GEORGE AND RUTH KAPSALIS!!!! They both have passed, but today their daughter (my aunt) gave me a very helpful wonderful gift they left for me. It is a big help in my life right now and I will never forget them. I will be sad they won't be at my wedding in november. :( Also, a great thing about today is the wonderful couch I get to relax on and recover from my cold on.