Coffee, hopes, blood and vegetables?

Twelve days of my life have gone by again. Yes, I am making coffee and it smells delightful. I've had my shower....and I've closed the bedroom doors so Jeremy can have peace from my typing as he continues to sleep. What an angel! He hasn't found a job yet, but our hopes are...well, hopeful. I'm truly thinking God will give him a new job...or his old job back...sometime in March. I would love earlier of course! A ladybug got trapped in my car on the way home from work yesterday, so I thought that was a fairly good sign.

My grandpa is doing MUCH better, he's out of the hospital and his bacterial infection of the blood is subsiding. His hugely swollen arm has gone down, and I really need to give him a call to say hello.

January 10th, I began a fruit and vegetable fast sort of lead by my friend Ayla. She's a wonderfully God led woman and I would like to follow her examples of having no health-impeding worries and letting go of all for God to deal with. I've prayed a few times and it's felt good, but I'm still trying to find a true connection with God again...similar to the one I had growing up in Christian school, but better. One thing I am finding is a good connection with fruits, vegetables, and the good earth. I've made things I never thought about making...like spaghetti squash, eggplant, and home-made tomato sauce - with Jeremy's help of course. I've cheated a couple of times - having hard boiled eggs and a little bit of milk...but I didn't feel too bad because it really wasn't that drastic. I have lost 6 lbs today though! And I have ten days left. I am so happy! If I continue to eat this well, and then start my walking....I could actually be my ideal weight before my wedding, how exciting!!!

Baked tomatoes with basil leaves.

Homemade tomato sauce, with spaghetti squash in the background.

Baked asparagus with whole mushrooms.

Wedding updates:

Jeremy and i got a new printer so we printed out some of the pieces to our wedding invitations. I made the reply cards, the reply card envelopes, and the reception card! I did the math and it's almost 400$ cheaper to make your own than order some simple ones made for you that are about just as nice! I am such a good money saver...for the most part!

Jeremy designed some WONDERFUL place cards for the head table at the reception :) They are really going to make the bridal party feel special!

We also went to the Church a couple of days ago and took a LOT of pictures to get ideas for how to decorate it. This wedding is really coming along and it's wonderful!

On the 16th, I took Becky and Ayla to Gainesville to meet with Jenny and try on bridesmaid dresses. We also ate lunch at Olive Garden. Wow, was it hard. If I didn't have Ayla with me...I would have had some crazy fatty pasta. We all had salads and vegetables....except Becky. She had the steak gorgonzola...what a biatch. lol!! So now i am torn between two AMAZING bridesmaid dresses. The first one is the original one that I had wanted. It's this one...

.....but in the melrose print shown in this picture....

And now, we happened to find another dress that all the girls I could tell LOVED and loved wearing...they all looked incredibly elegant and goddess like....

Sorry, I didn't have your face on that one jenny...haha. I was trying to get a close up of the goods! So this dress is AMAZING. One thing about my bridesmaids is they are all super gorgeous and nice and slim and just beautiful princesses! Sounds shallow and mean, but I'm glad I don't have fatties in my wedding. I'm the chunkiest one right now unfortunately, but that will change. I will be equal to them with the help of those damn veggies. haha. I really don't think the first one got a fair chance....i will be looking for a shop that has both those EXACT right dresses so they can try them on side by side. Stay tuned to what dress I choose :)

Good Morning World!

It's been five days! I've been very busy, very tired, and have had an awful cold.

Monday I toughed work out hardcore. I was getting sicker by the moment, but I pushed on. I don't like failing where I work at all. Just after 10pm, I had our last few customers checking out and was waiting by the door to let them out.(The doors were turned off and locked at this point.) One woman leaving asked if I was sick because she could hear my sniffles. I said yes and boy was she an angry bitch. She literally turned evil - horns and fire - and demanded SICK PEOPLE SHOULD NOT COME TO WORK! YOU TOUCHED MY GROCERIES! I just said very clear, I did NOT touch your groceries. She had maybe two bags and I did actually remember walking by and putting her two, already filled bags, into her cart to be nice just a little while before. Then she nastily stated, YOU TOUCHED MY BAGS!!!! DO YOU HAVE HAND SANITIZER SOMEWHERE?? As a matter of fact, I did right behind me have a container of alcohol wipes on the wall. I grabbed the container and held it out before her. She stared at me shocked that I had touched the container. I'LL GET MY OWN! PUT IT BACK ON THE WALL. I just though geese, this old bitch must have aids or something to be that concerned...if she used the wipes, she didn't even have to touch the container whether I was holding it or not. STUPID DUMB IDIOT - that's what she was. She went back inside and got new fresh grocery bags as I had obviously heavily contaminated them. Meanwhile, a man drove by and asked if we were open from inside his truck NO! I said across the way...CAN I JUST COME IN A BUY A PACK OF CIGARETTES!? I just can't let anyone in after hours I told him. BUT I SEE SOME PEOPLE IN THERE? I CAN JUST GIVE YOU THE MONEY AND YOU CAN GO BUY THEM FOR ME AND BRING THEM BACK HERE. Once again, i simply said I can't do that. He flicked me off and drove away. Are you that desperate that you have to pester a grocery store girl and be mean to her? I guess he was, he needed them so bad, I hope he drove next door and got them at the gas station. It would take him all of 10 seconds to get there. What a dumbass. I get really sick of nasty folk being mean to me at work somedays I can't stand it. It honestly will make me cry. I don't always take it personally, but when there's just an abundance of it going on in one day, it makes me sick to my stomach. Assholes. This world is a buncha assholes. I just wanted to go home and get better.

Tuesday, I was extremely sick and flat out called out of work. It was a horrible feeling making that phone call, but I had to do it to recover or I was just going to get worse. I don't like shorting my grocery store with workers, but it happens often so I felt assured they'd get by whether I was there or not. The show goes on - even if you fall asleep watching it. I spent most of the day laying on the couch, bundled up, coughing my brains out. No fun at all.

Wednesday, I was a bit better and wasn't scheduled to work anyways. Jer and I had decided to go to the School and help his mom with a few things to get some community service hours to pay off my speeding ticket. Unfortunately, something came up and both of our horrible colds impeded us from going. I went by myself to get a new fish for my tank - a little algae eater. He is so cute! We got some coffee and lunch and just chatted for a while. We felt pretty good as long as we weren't doing "work" for some reason, so we went over to Ayla's apartment - shes's one of my best friends and is in our November wedding as a bridesmaid :) Over there, we watched "Food Inc." and "Supersize Me" to remind us of the damages our foods and food choices are causing us. We decided we'd go on a 21 day fruit and vegetable fast that she is participating in with her Church up in Jacksonville. Actually, I think many Churches do this every January to cleanse and begin fresh and of course concentrate on our prayers to God to get us through the fasting and life in general. Ayla has begun already, but Jer and I aren't starting until the 10th. I'm very excited and pumped about it. We had a lot of fun at Ayla's talking about it and she has really inspired me. I told her i might be calling her every 5 seconds when I am craving bread, meat, and cheese. haha! When we got home around 10:30 or so, Jer and i wiped out our pantry and fridge of the 5 things that Dr. Oz said you should never eat. Well, we threw out the cold ones and just hid the dry items. These items include:

Saturated Fats
Sugar
Enriched/White grains
Trans fats/hydrogenated oils
High-fructose corn syrup

It was very invigorating to get rid of these things!

Thursday, when i woke up - I found my new fish dead. It was very sad - so I made Jeremy flush him. Poor little guy, I think he froze to death but i'm not sure. My other little fishling is doing quite well. I want him to have a friend, but i need to take my water to the pet store to get tested. I really don't want another one to die on me. I went to work and it kind of sucked in general. We didn't get the store completely leveled so I felt like i was a failure and it was my fault. I think my error was that I didn't monitor the levelers enough to make sure they were doing their best. I don't think a lot of them cared enough to do their best on this particular night. Oh well, other days will come that are far more sucessful.

Friday was alright. I worked 10-7 and it was JAM PACKED with people almost all day. I was the coordinator and i was on register pretty much 7.5 of the 8 hours. It went by fairly quickly though. I think people were freaking out because this weekend is supposed to be extremely cold. Well, cold for a middle west coast Florida region. Some news stations even stated SNOW, but that is impossible. I've lived here for 24 years - my whole life and have never seen snow. It's not going to happen. It's 36 degress outside right now and I know that's cold, but it just won't snow. After work, I took another step toward my fruit and veggie fast. I bought a WHOLE lot of them and a couple of spices. I'm so challenged! After that, I rushed home and jer and I went to Applebees with Jeff and Amy. It was fun to chat for a bit and eat that nasty unhealthy food one last time. Well, for a three weeks anwyways.

Today, I just got up right before writing this so who knows what the day holds! For sure - a lot of cold...and coffee for now since I am making some. Jer just scooped the litter box in the freezing cold and he came in laughing because he loves it so much. Hopefully, someday we move up north and have a big home with some land, and some fireplaces of course. :)

Cold weather, Cold bitch, Warm couch :)

Today I worked 6am-3pm. The dark drive there was very cold so I was nice and bundled in my car with the heat on. While driving with my left hand, I held a "mike" mug with my right hand. You know the little green one-eyed monster from pixar's Monsters Inc.? I got Jer the mug for his birthday a couple years ago. I was drinking peppermint tea from it while my Jer Bear was still fast asleep under the covers at home. Mmmm. Lucky boy. :) I love him.



Work was normal...nothing too exciting happened. Although, there is a crazy bitch that comes in fairly regularly and calls the customer service desk on her cell phone to bitch about something not being on the shelf for her WHILE she's one aisle behind the desk. Talk about lazy. She's extremely demanding. I swear she thinks she steps into the store and is instantly illuminated with some crown of queenly glory. She doesn't say things like, "can you please find out if you have any ivory dish soap in the back since you don't seem to have any more on the shelf?" She says things like, "I'm on aisle ten. Someone needs to bring me my ivory dish soap now!" Don't you just want to slap bitches like that? I'd take her if I were allowed. What a fat lazy bitch. The thing that really gets me is she will fucking call the desk over and over if you don't drop all your other customers and run to her beckon. Makes me sick to my stomach. She doesn't deserve any better life than anyone else. Oh well, forget her. All I can do is act respectfully to others to help balance out people like her who have an evil mean spirit inside of them.

One rough thing about today has been the horrible cold I have. I coughed so much this evening that I threw up my whole dinner. What a waste. My insides are in so much pain from all the coughing! My head is full of snot and my neti pot won't get it all out. I took my prescribed cough syrup and about fell asleep on the couch watching some nat geo show about inmates escaping from prison. Then I snapped out of the falling asleep to come share today with my blog!

What was great about today? I must say from the bottom of my heart, THANK YOU GEORGE AND RUTH KAPSALIS!!!! They both have passed, but today their daughter (my aunt) gave me a very helpful wonderful gift they left for me. It is a big help in my life right now and I will never forget them. I will be sad they won't be at my wedding in november. :( Also, a great thing about today is the wonderful couch I get to relax on and recover from my cold on.

Oh Christmas tree....until we meet again.

Today was what I call an "apartment day." I didn't leave all day and it was damn wonderful. I got things around the place done and didn't have to look nice or scramble around town trying to be at three different places in the same day.

Today was also goodbye to Christmas time. I have an artificial tree which is very great for a young couple that lives on a 3rd floor apartment. We just box her back up and stick her in the storage room on our balcony until next year. Also, I don't have to go through the sadness of throwing away a dead tree that could have still been alive if it wasn't chopped down in the first place. I'm not against chopping down trees for Christmas or anything like that, but I sure feel depressed when they are turned brown and lying by the road for the garbage man, all fallen apart and sad looking.

Wedding update: Our Wedding is on November 12, 2010. We ordered our "Save-the-Date" cards today. Can't wait to receive them and then send them out to our loved ones and friends! This is the picture we used on this cards....



Now that Jeremy is unemployed... [[ due to his stupid company letting go of many awesome graphic designers to give their positions to people in India so they can pay them cheaply...(thanks for helping the US get out of the current recession going on!!!) ]] ...Jeremy will be a great help around the apartment and I am glad to know he gets to sleep in all cozy and work on his new ideas and be the creative wizard he is with this new found time. He is very optimistic about the future, particularly this year, and believes he will find something far better than before. I love him for his solid hopes.

What was great about today? That things got done around the apartment and I am ready for tomorrow :)

NEW YEAR - new beginnings - Happy 2010!!

What better day to start my very own blog than January 1st? There is something so refreshing about the first day of the year. My name is Meg, I work at a grocery store as a customer service staff member (been there 8 and a half wonderful years), and I live with my fiancee and two Persians in our lovely little apartment. Jeremy is over at his brother's condo playing xbox and I just got home from work about an hour ago. Of course Jeremy said he'd be home in 10 mins...but that was an hour ago. Haha!! Men love their video games. I just wanted to introduce myself in my first post. I could type about life and my thoughts all night long, but I will leave those bits for later in the year and give them in appropriately sized doses.

What I did today:

I got up and worked 11-8pm and on my lunch break visited my grandma and grandpa where i of course ate black eyed peas for good luck! I also bought a new coach purse from one of my sisters. She had bought two during last year's black Friday shopping and realized she couldn't afford them both so I happily took one off her hands. I needed a bigger one anyways.

New Year's Resolutions:

1.Get healthy - I am already suffering from HBP...and it needs to be/stay controlled.
2.Learn to focus on ONE thing at a time - and not a hundred things! I need to learn that accomplishing one thing a day is much more productive than starting ten things a day.
3. Stop worrying about family members! They choose their own path in life as I am choosing my own. I can't change any of them, even if I want to.

What was great about today? That I am alive and refreshed! I hope I keep up with this blog from now on!